1 month before surgery!!!

So my surgery date is set... January 13, 2015!

I have my final surgical wires on my braces.
The Surgeon is taking all my pre-surgical  X-rays, MRI, molds, etc next week.
I have requested my time off of work.
My wonderful and very supportive husband has requested time off of work to take care of me in my invalid state.
My mother-in-law bought me the most amazing Vitamix blender to ensure I will have adequate nutrition (and my old hand-me-down blender is headed to the donation pile)
Now I just need to stock up on smoothie making materials, Ensure, Chicken Broth, and all the other recommendations from random internet blogs of people who have gone through this (why are they all in England or Canada, where are the Americans?!?)

I'm nervous, recovery sounds awful, but I'm still keeping all the positives firmly in mind (my future self had better thank me for this!) 
Including:

• Teeth that actually touch (oh the foods I'll be able to eat!!)
• No tension headaches from poorly aligned teeth (maybe I'll be smarter if my head doesn't always hurt!)
• Improved breathing (decreased risk for sleep apnea which decreases my risk for a heart attack!!!) 
• but mostly I'm just excited about the food I'll get to eat!  I could make a list longer than this post of food I've missed and will be able to eat again without grinding or rending my fool like the half-bovine creature I feel like I am now.

I'll post again right before the surgery and try to post daily here afterward in case anyone wants to follow along in my recovery with me.

Until then I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!

Phase III: Orthognathic surgery

09/22/2014

So it is official. I met with my orthognathic surgeon a couple weeks ago and then saw my orthodontist again today and I'm truly gearing up for some serious surgery.  There was definitely a part of me that was so hopeful that the braces might be a mini- miracle and I wouldn't need surgery after they did their part...

Braces Adjustment

February 2014

I had my braces adjusted on Monday.  The Orthodontist popped off and reapplied a couple brackets and upped the wire strength on the bottom teeth.  Not too bad actually.  I'm back to eating soft foods, but not baby food... Thank goodness!

But every time I go back to the orthodontist or tell someone new why I have braces in my 30's, I start the whole anxiety spiral over the surgery all over again.  Its not just that I have a black hole in my calendar between September and January where I can't make plans (which IS really annoying!). Its more the thought of someone cutting up my face terrifies me and that I am voluntarily letting them.  Sure its for quality life, decreasing chronic pain, and ensuring that I have good nutrition by being able to chew food in the future... however this surgery is not like an emergency appendectomy where the doctors go to work and I am not sitting around anticipating it for 2 years.  

So as a habit, after I start getting anxious I scour the web to find someone who had had this same procedure and how they survived/thrived with it.  Most of the videos on youtube.com  that I find are done by ~17 yr old girls in the UK who had a severe under-bite, which is close to what I'm expecting but not quite my problem or my recovery path.  I found this one (below) today.  

The video is designed by an Australian surgeon, but the video is of a girl who has very, very similar bite occlusion and jaw pain as I do. And the positive results she seems to of found are reassuring. It reminds me as to the reasons that I am torturing myself (and draining my bank account)!  So if anyone reading this is wondering why I am doing all this work and willing putting up with all this discomfort check out the video:

PS. It also inspires me to do a video blog.  Don't worry I won't torture you all this far out, but I'll probably record a few pre- and post- surgery videos.

Hello from snowy Virginia!

Hello from snowy Virginia!

Sorry I haven't written in a few months. My orthodontist decided not to change my wires in December which has actually lead to a wonderful 15- weeks of no changes to my mouth. Well any relative changes... I have noticed that my teeth have gotten straighter on the bottom and I am starting to get some gaps between a few teeth on the top.   Not hillbilly gaps yet, but I believe I will get there before this stage is done!

The headaches are starting to return a bit, I never thought for a minute I would miss that chunk of plastic splint, but I guess I didn't appreciate it enough until I had my first 3-day migraine in a year.  Too bad it wasn't a permanent fix!

But truly the best part in the last 15 months has been these past 3 weeks, my teeth have really dialed down on the soreness and I have been able to chew many more foods that have been challenging for the past year.  My front teeth still do not touch (and I don't expect them too until after the surgery) so there is no biting into a sandwich, but I've really been able to chew again with my back right teeth.  I've even been able to eat lettuce/salads and pizza this week!  Unfortunately its back to the orthodontist in another week, so I plan to eat everything under the sun in case the teeth sensitivity flare up again.  But I'm hopeful that maybe it was just so awful because it was the initial 6 months of braces and that the rest of this year will be a cakewalk...well that is until THE surgery.

2nd wire change for braces

5 November 2013

I just had my second wire change for my braces yesterday. And wow am I hurting today!  I know I was sore after the last one, but it still caught me off guard today.  I forget what gauge wire I am up to, but I was told that I am at a "medium level, the level at which they do most of the work."  And being the obsessive planner that I am, I asked again (like every time)...so how far out from surgery am I looking?  He told me that it is now looking like next fall at the earliest :(  which is fine, I believe in my orthodontist, I trust his outcomes, but I want this process over with! and he had told me upfront that it will likely be 1.5 years with braces before the surgery, but I did have the pipe-dream that I could graduate in May and get the surgery over with before I started a new job.

Anyways, my suggestions for the pain of a braces adjustment?  Take your pain medications regularly and on time. Ice packs. Take the day off after your get them adjusted (if possible! I say this as I head back to class). Definitely brush with Sensodyne toothpaste. And use your blender!  Your teeth are going to hurt so bad that you don't want them to come in contact with each other at all = no chew foods.

1st meeting with surgeon

September 23

Yesterday I had my first consultation with my maxillofacial surgeon.  I know its early out!  I just got my braces on 2 months ago and I was told to expect at least 1 -1.5 years before my teeth/bite/mouth are ready for surgery.  BUT... I just needed to talk to him.  All the website, journal articles, and blog research has only left me with more questions about what exactly will be happening to me personally and what I can expect as my prognosis.  I also really feel that its important to encourage my healthcare providers to act as a team.  To further that, I feel like if I'm on everyone's radar (or just somewhere in their patient files) they are going to watch out for me and something I may need is less likely to slip through the cracks.

So I met with the surgeon who actually put on gloves and looked at my mouth and my bite.  He then sat down and reviewed my x-rays with me.  And wow was that a shocker!  I knew I had a dental malocclusion and I thought that I had understood why this malocclusion led to my TMJ dysfunction. But what a difference an educated discussion made on my understanding!

Turns out I will need double jaw surgery.

There are typically 4 reasons someone needs this surgery (a part from trauma) and I've got 3 of the 4!  I've got the overbite, the overjet/open bite, and the asymmetry....wheee!  The only one I am missing is the underbite, which would be awfully hard to have at the same time as an overbite. The Dr gave me a brochure that looks like its from the 1980's "Your Orthognathic Surgery" I'll have to upload some pages next chance I get.  Essentially:
1. Serious Operation with all inherent risks
2. Inpatient hospital stay ~ 2-3 nights
3. I'll be out of work for 2-3 weeks
4. Liquid -> soft food diet for several months
5. My face/profile will change

Apparently I am still rather upset about the double jaw surgery, because I am really struggling and find myself reluctant to write tonight.  But I have about 1 year to a 1.5 years before the orthodontics will have done their work and my teeth will be where they should be for the surgery, so that should be plenty of time to come to terms with everything. 

1st Adjustment of Braces

9/20/2013

Well I went back to the orthodontist for my first adjustment of my braces yesterday.  They applied 1 gauge higher tensile strength wire on my top teeth and 2 gauges higher on my bottom teeth.  Here is a website I found that explains the importance of the wire: All About Arch Wires.  It was sore yesterday after the adjustment, but really the pain started when I woke up this morning.  It feels like my whole lower jaw is swollen, to the point where I feel like it should be obvious to everyone I meet. Of course I cannot see a difference in a mirror so there is no way that anyone else can tell, but I just want to wrap my whole face in ice and stop pretending that I am a normal person today... but that won't pay the bills!

Did I mention that they placed some composite material on my molars with the braces application in July? If not...they had placed a little composite material on my molars so that with my night grinding (bruxism) I would grind away the composite and not my tooth enamel (one of the reasons most people with TMJ disorders wear night guards). Well apparently I had managed to wear it away significantly (grad school= increase stress = more night grinding) so they added a lot more composite to my molars.  I know this sounds great in theory, but the composite material is all that can touch now, so its like have 2 pencil points that prop my teeth apart and my mouth open. Which brings me back to eating, one of my favorite hobbies and something I can no long do :(  Can you imagine trying to chew food with a pen tip? So needless to say I am really bummed to be back on a liquid/no chew diet.  Looks like I'm headed to the grocery store to stock back up on yogurt, mashed potatoes, protein powder, and pureed soups.

Now after I've complained enough, I did get some good news from the Orthodontist!  I asked if it still looked like we were on track to schedule my jaw surgery next fall (2014).  My reason for asking is that I graduate in May and I would really like to give my new employer a heads up that I will need to take some time off for the surgery.  And Dr R said that every mouth is different . . .*usual spiel*. . . BUT that there was a chance I could be ready for surgery in the Summer or even maybe May!  Which means surgery sooner, braces off sooner, new pain-free life sooner!!! My response was that if it was possible for him to crank on my teeth harder now I would take more pain today to get it all over quicker...unfortunately it doesn't work that way. But I left his office feeling a renewed sense of hope and optimism for my future life!

Here's an (unattractive) but upward view of my teeth as closed as they can get... which is to say not at all :(